Wawa, the last time I talked to you hari Isnin, you asked me "Kau ade tak hari Khamis ni?"

and now you're in the ICU waiting for operation darah beku kat otak.

I remember u said " kau sayang aku tak?"

and I answer " ahh, tak tak"

u said "eleh....aku tau"

adn yes ur rite, i love you even you are the most abg yg suke sakitkan hati.

i hope ur ok. don't u wanna see me in wedding gown?

I used to ask you, "nak saya tegur or tak?" "nak saya marah-marah ke tak" "nak saya nangis or tak" "because, when i don't do that to you, that means i don't care about you anymore".

si bulat mamanie

Today she's not feeling well. deman panas. Ouh pity her. And today anta mommy daddy ke airport. she cried sadly. Mommy daddy tak turn back pun, can't barely see her with that face and that situation. My eyes dah bertakung. Haihh I can't imagine how her real parents tergamak tinggalkan dia, padahal kitarunk yang foster family pun, sayang gila kat die.

now, she's downstair terbaring sakit. Tanak makan tanak apa pun. But u still nak main-main dengan adik. Baby- mamanie hearts you. tak tahan tengok u macam tu. Apalah nasib, but I can see you very tabah orangnya. Hope you can go to INDO as fast as you can - eventho we who are in Malaysia will cried and visit you every month, as long ur happy- we will do anything for you.

p/s: tak sabar nak kahwin nak ada anak. macam mana aku bentuk anak aku nanti?

Ceramah

Tadi dengar ceramah "SEDEKAH". Eveything yang kita buat semuanya sedekah. Geletek suami pun sedekah. Senyum pun sedekah. Beli baju pun sedekah.

My Bad habits

1. Super Duper suka kutuk orang especially kutuk dengan orang yang sama tak puas ati jugak.

2. Suka pendam perasaan.

3. When I don't like you and getting tired of you- erkkk- you know what I do.

4. Talam dua muka. very good one.

5. Hati aku tak suci - hitam sehitam-hitamnya.

6. Aku sentiasa rasa aku betol. :)

7. Suka buka pekung di dada, termasuk pekung kat dada orang lain gak.

8. When you found one of my bad habits - write down here. :)

Penat

I don't know why, I think I give 'friends' to much chances. Padahal diri sendiri dah letih. Sometimes, by first impression kita ingat ouh dielah kawan sampai mati aku. Denggg! No! I often meet wrong people before meet the right one. Allah temukan kita dengan orang yang salah sebelum temukan kita dengan orang yang betul supaya kita sentiasa sabar dan hargai dia.

Aku pun sedar, aku sangat jahat- becoz aku dah super letih. For those yang kena dengan aku I'm sorry but you deserve it. For those yang bagi kat aku with GOOD REASON - how lucky I am sebab ade orang tegur aku even pedih camne pun.

It is much better kena and makan dalam dengan orang yang memang kita wajib tacing hari-hari instead of tacing kemudian hari hahahaha. Girls, I super know, you talked behind my back, and you know what? you're too board because there is no one who wants to entertain you until you make up stories and talked about me to everyone. I repeat EVERYONE.

I forgive you once. But I just can't forgive you twice.

I care about people - but I care for the one who really want me too care. - bukan maksud aku nak mengendeng-ngendeng. geli aku. hahaha

RULES:

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.

2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.

3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.

4. Tag 10 friends.

5. Everyone tagged has to do the same thing.

6. Have Fun!

1. IF SOMEONE SAYS 'ARE YOU OKAY' YOU SAY? tragedi tenda biru

2. HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF? akan ku kenang

3. WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL? mad

4. HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY? give me everything

5. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE? stereo hearts

6. WHAT'S YOUR MOTTO? who says

7. WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU? knock knock

8. WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU? let me hold you

9. WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN? wavin' flag

10. WHAT IS 2 + 2? sejujur mana kata-kata

11. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND? umbrella

12. WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY? begitu indah

13. WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP? mine

14. WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE? hey daddy!

15. WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING? perfect nightmare

16. WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL? berjanjilah

17. WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST? ramalan ku benar berlaka

18. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR? mungkinkah terjadi

19. WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET ? all i have

20. WHAT DO YOU WANT RIGHT NOW? cinta sejati

21. WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS? bila diri disayangi

22. WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS? seandainya

Menyampah tol aku dengan kawan-kawan aku ni

Haih! Menyampah tol aku dengan kawan-kawan aku. Menyampah gile. Orang dah ar nak buat beday partayyy die, die leh jawab "tapela, korang g je r". Berbulu gua, pastu spoil kan plan orang, orang nak wat bbq, ishh kenapa la tak leh bangun awal pi consult? Kan dapat makan kepsi je.

BERBULUUUUUUUUUUUUU

I had this feeling, but I never knew it was you

Back 6 years ago, aku kenal dengan kau. First time aku tengok muka kau dalam henpau abang aku, I was like "aku kena kenal dengan mamat ni"-padahal he's just a plain guy. Aku suka sangat kau, tapi kau tak suka aku. But then, time tu kau tade perasaan-keje nak marah je. Sampai la satu tahap kita tak contact sebulan. Until then, kau cari aku. You missed me. But when you realize you love me, I started to get away from you.

I want you, but not you "you". Hahaha then the second time kau mintak couple, I was like-mana nak pilih, die ke R? How stupid I am to choose R -kalau tau teruk gile nak kena camtu. But then, I realized, if aku tak dengan R - camna aku nak tahan and kawal marah?, and you started to realize benda jadi bersebab. You started to change to someone sangat sabar. Dulu tak camtu.

Masa dengan R lagi, aku asyik compared kau dengan die. "kalau die, xda nak buat aku camni"- eventho kita dah 1 years lebeh tak contact time tu. Aku tau, nampak kejam aku layan R time tu camtu. But when, dah betul-betul terluka aku dah jadi malas and panas hahahaha. Aku tak tau kenapa, aku rasa kau jodoh aku (eventho tak tau la kan tade jodoh ke ape).

bila kau datang balik dalam hidop, aku cam hepi sangat. i need you. i need your shoulder. Bila aku cerita everything, you were like my hero- aku tau bertapa kau akan dihentam oleh beberapa manusia sebab act as perampas. I was down. People talked to you this and that way. But kau still ada. I know, people thought kita bercinta rite after aku putus. But hey, kita je tau. Hehehe

Aku hepi skang, walaupun kau tak romantik, tak reti pujok and etc. But you're the one who's left to love me. Hope so. Sekali kena tinggai , padan muka. Hahaha

Sekali Lagi

Act kiterunk nak tengok cite Transformer, tapi malangnya fully booked. Then cuba nasib kat IOI Mall, pun sama-so decide tengok cerita Sekali Lagi. Orang kata sedih. Ke aku tade perasaan? Hahaha act cite ni aku bagi 3 1/2 out of 5 stars je, aku tak puas ati tol ending die. But, cite ni sesuai ntok Couple yang tengah gadow, yang tengah crisis and moody macam aku. Muahaha tak la.

Ade part yang betol-betol buat aku tacing bile part yang ade sama macam Dia.

1. Awakk.... (hulur tangan-pujuk).

2. t

3. e

4. n

5. g

6. 0

7. k

8. laaaaaaaaa..sebok je nak tau hahaa.

Then lepas tengok citer ni, then I realize, how cruel I am to treat you like that. Yela, bila pompuan ade benda tak puas ati-terus cakap what they feel. But tak semua la. Then kita tak realize ade je lelaki yang sebenarnye lebih suka berdiam diri. Eventho kita dah buat die kecik hati, kalau bagi die bende tu kecik sangat, seboleh-bolehnya die nak simpan sebab nak jaga hati kita. Seriously nak nagis. waaaaaa!!

Guys always blame girls, girls always blame guys. Then, someone tegur. Jangan samakan. Cube kalau orang cakap pompuan macam tu. Cube awak pikir dalam family awak ade berapa orang lelaki. Fuhh..! Sorry my bad. People often cakap camni sebab takot. Normal lah. Aku pun. Hubungan yang tada masalah ibarat kau bercinta dengan patung-senyap je. Have courage. We often cakap camtu sebab meet the wrong person. I will too someday, or will not. Who knows. Cuba dulu. Bila die tak seperti yang kau impikan, yang kau nak-cuba sempurnakan die dalam hati kau. Janganlah judge die- kau suke die judge kau?

When things happen, stop blame the other party, cari punca kat diri sendiri dulu. Then start blame him/ her. Hahaha ni nasihat ntok diri sendiri ye. Sebab asyik memarah die je - without realize. I'm sorry.

p/s: jgn takot mencuba, and jangan ingat semua orang sama macam si dia, si dia. Boringgggg~

jgn ingat aku gelak-gelak and suke-suke gembira dengan bf aku, aku bahagia. hahahaha thing happens men.

I need oxygen. Pleaseee...

I'm scared!

Today, it happens to be may bad day. Lepas semayang subuh I can't breath. Setiap kali nak tutup mata, the pain keep coming. Aku asyik terjaga je sebab 'cari nyawa'. It happens a month already. But aku try nak overcome, tahan and I think I can handle it. But then, 7.30 I called him and cried a lot, sangat kuat. Because I can' t breath and keep dreaming my nose tersumbat hingus la, when I walked sikit je dah tak leh breath. I'm scared. Is it something wrong with my lung or my heart? It hurts. Before this selalu je kene, but still aku leh handle. And this time, I can't. I feel like Tuhan dah panggil je. But I have to fight. There is something I gotta do. Patotnya tunggu dia balik nak pergi klinik and hospitak check jantung. But today dah tak tahan sangat, kena pergi sendiri. Si dia lak nak turun dari Johor, but aku considered die ade exam and jauh, it's ok la, eventhough I need him most. Hope everything's gonna be ok.

Going to clinic cyber. And check jantung with him later.

Kaya or Less Kaya

Isu ni agak besar jugaklah. I don't want to used ayat miskin. A bit sensitif for me. Hahaha tapi I would like to talked about it. Tehre are many type of person:

1. Ada yang kaya but biasa-biasa je.

2. Ada yang kaya tapi tu ha. Belagak bukan main.

3. Ada yang less kaya tapi down to earth.

4. Ada yang less kaya tapi ouh belagak sangat ko ni.


Which one are you?

1. Hahaha people always mistaken yang kaya parents ada tittle, sangatlah kaya. Apa yang kau mintak semua dapat. Then tak main la pakai-pakai barang takda brand! Korang kan mak bapak kaya. Ada jugak yang ada, ada jugak yang tak. Ada jugak yang mintak apa saja semua dapat tapi very down to earth punya person. Ada jugak yang boleh dapat apa saja tapi tak mintak. Ada jugak yang mintak tak dapat-dapat. Tengok la how the parents besarkan kita.

Ada yang kaya takda title, tapi nak kata yang ada title life dia much untung la. Padahal sama je, dia pun kaya je, cuma takde title. Kadang-kadang yang tak ada title lagi dapat macam-macam and sangat manja.

For those yang kaya parents with or wothout title, live a simple way. Janganlah berlagak pulak. Even kau tak leh nak pakai barang x branded pon, jangan lah sampai kau tak leh nak jejakkan kaki ke sana. Lagipun benda tu parents kau yang dapat, yang leh berlagak. ko nak berlagak ngape? Sebok lah ko ni! For those yang keep thinking "ala banyak duit bolehla", "ala dia kan anak orang besar-besar", jangan ingat semua orang sama. Unless dia memang berlagak nak suh aku tonyoh-tonyoh kepala dia.

2. Ada jugak orang yang less kaya, tapi very down to earth, tak berlagak, baik and redha dengan apa yand dia ada. Ada jugak, yang berkemampuan tapi malas nak beli-beli benda branded. Nak simple je. Jangan pulak ko hina dia, cakap "tak mampu ke pe nak pakai lawa-lawa sikit". Ko nak sponsor ke? Hahahahaha ade jugak yang less kaya tapi hidung tinggi bukan main. Nak branded je tapi hidup dengan duit parents nak berlagak. Tak kisah la kau nak pakai branded ke tak, tapi jangan lah macam "what?, time square je kot baju tu?". Ko diam sudah la. Down to earth sikit.

Kaya or tak, branded or not. Up to you. Niat tu. Kita nak jadi kaya or less kaya yang berbudi bahasa or kaya and less kaya yang berlagak sangat-sangat. Buatnya Allah tarik rezeki kita, baru tau. And don't judge person the same way.

When I met your mother, father, kakak, pakcik makcik

Hahaha bapa banyak entri daa nak letak dalam 1 day. Bosan la. Bosan. Hehehe actually this is my first time met up with 'boyfriend' family. Before this, sapa-sapa yang ajak aku jumpa family mesti aku taknak. Bukan ape, takut tak menjadi. Tapi terjumpa lak family si dia. Sebab aku pikirkan mak dia yang dah lama nak jumpa aku. Dah la time raya tahun-tahun berikut aku tak datang, so tak baik aku buat orang tu tunggu lama.

Dah lepas-lepas jumpa semua, memang la agak malu and tak banyak cakap. Orang yang aku rasa tak suka aku kakak and abah dia. Sebab tak cakap langsung dengan aku. Sedeyh woo. But I keep trying and trying. Still tak jalan gak. Sampai la one day dia tegur "Cube awak amek hati mak tu sikit". Hangin gak aku time tu, as if macam aku tak try plak. After we talked, dia cakap yang dia patot bagi ruang kat aku buat sendiri and aku pulak patot lebih amek hati instead of kecik hati. Tapi bila aku pikir, I tried but wasn't good enough.

Sampai la one day masa kakak dia kahwin. I was so happy sebab bapak dia cakap dengan aku. Sebab dia cakap Abah and kakak dia kalau tak suka memang tak suka betol. Even 6 patah perkataan pun aku cukup happy. Pakcik, Pakcik suka saya sebab saya rajin ye? Hahahaha tapi saya tak pandai masak la pakcik. And now, I can get along with his family except abang ipar dia jela. Tkot! Hahaha

Tips nak amek hati versi aku:

1. Try sembang. Walaupun sekali je tanya. Good for first try out.

2. Jangan malu bertanya.

3. Kalau kau tak reti masak atau sekadar bolehla admit je. Mesti dorang bantu.

4. Apa yang dorang masak, makan je. Kalau tak pernah makan. Cuba makan. At least kalao tak boleh masuk, takde la dorang masakkan lagi bila kau datang. Hahaha

5. Sila jangan malas ye. Buat kerja ikhlas. Camne parents dia nak get along dengan kau kalau ko pun ala-ala je dengan dorang.

Teringat bila aku tak pernah makan ikan tu ikan ni, then tak pernah tengok buah tu buah ni, mesti parents dia bawak and masakkan. Alhamdullillah, dorang tak pernah padang aku ni macam "bandar sangat budak ni", maybe sebab apa yang tak pernah aku makan, aku makan kot. Walaupun agak malu jugak sebab tak pernah merasa, tapi I'm glad sebab dorang bagi aku rasa.

When youa re in a relationship, you are in relationship with his family. Not only him. If you want a relationship with just him. You'll never find happiness.

Taste

What is your taste? Hahaha today nak cakap pasal boyfiend/ girlfriend or guys/ girls.

Dulu masa kekecik I often met cute guys. Budak baru kat sekolah kan? Hahaha selalu je aku cakap "Ishh, aku dah tangkap cintan la kat mamat ni", but deep inside bila dah dewasa sikit, I realized actually I fell in love with his outer (ye ke ayat aku ni?) bukan for who he is. Biasalah, sapa taknak boyfriend or girlfriend handsome kan? Bonus beb!

Why I'm saying this? Sebab it happens to me exactly. Bukan nak kata aku lawan ke pandai bergaya ke, but some people take advantage. Such as some one you know came to you and claim he/she loves you like for a long time. Kenapa baru sekarang? Sebab dulu aku selekeh? Gemok? Tak pandai bergaya? DO you realized you love me for who I'm not? Ce pikir?

Bila guy yang agak handsome je, bila jumpa yang lagi cute dari girlfriend sendiri, mula-lah berubah hati. Kata tak sayang la apelah, despite you lie to someone else faces admit jela sebenarnye ko suka yang lagi cantik. Hehehe now, I love guy for who he is. Even dia tak pandai macam kita, tak sekaya kita, tak sama level macam kita, tak pandai nak sweet-sweet, tak pandai nak buat kerja macam kita. I always want to be with you. I rather be with guy yang berbudi bahasa especially with orang tua and rajin. I don't chase rich guy because I want to try to hidup susah with you. I want to be with him susah and senang.

When there is someone for you, try bukak hati-think positive and jangan expect terlalu tinggi that he gonna do this and do that for you takot heartbreak pulak. Aku dulu pun takut gak, but I try and still trying. And please remind yourself, are you good enough for him sampai nak judge macam tu?

For those who afraid yang orang akan cakap "Ey, boyfriend dia tak hensem pon", "Ey, bukan banyak duit pun boyfriend dia, ingat kaya sangat sampai beli macam-macam untuk gf die". Let it be!! Because dorang takde that type of boyfriend. I know it will make you down. Think positive. Tapi janganlah sampai kau pun nak kikis duit boyfriend kau kalau dah tau dia takda duit and keep complaining. Unless ko pun ade bantu-bantu gak.

Tapi kalau dapat boyfriend kaya pun suka hati kaulah, boyfriend ko. Hahahaha for those yang tak dapat merasa and iri hati sikit dengan relationship seseorang, ce cakap camni kat boyfriend "U, suka I tengok Hana dapat macam-macam from her boyfriend. Dapat sikat, cawan, tong sampah cute-cute. Untung kan?" . Bukan lah kau tak terima seadanya boyfriend kau, tapi kalau kau dah tak tahan sangat nak tengok, apa salahnya kau suarakan pendapat. And if boyfriend ko memang paham and sayang kau, mesti die buat perubahan dalam relationship tu even dia tak ada duit nak bagi macam-macam. Maybe he do something yang diluar jangkaan? Tapi apa-apa pun suit yourself.

Someone's birthday is coming. Muahahaha makan roti je ea Aku Hunny.

Friends

Bila usia makin dewasa, aku mula sedar sesuatu. Hihihihi now I want to talked about friends. Dari zaman sekolah until now.

Zaman Sekolah:

Aku ni sangat pendiam. Means tak suka nak market haha. Lawak je tengok. Dulu yang paling top kat sekolah, paling lawa now orang pandang biasa je. Orang yang less cantik and tak famous dah maju, dah lawa and jadi model pun. Yang dulu kaki gaduh kat sekolah leh jadi bapak jiwang nya.

Then masuk Diploma, dalam group aku, ade 7 orang perempuan je, lain semua laki. Tapi rapat dalam 3 orang perempuan jela. Aku less malu. Bak kata orang tu aku dah matang dalam bersosial. Tapi not yet dalam pemikiran. Kat sini aku agak banyak kawan yang berusia, and mostly kekal berkwan dengan orang yang berusia. Maybe sebab nak jadi matang kot. Haha aku suka jugak kawan dengan sorang budak ni Shiela nama dia. Sebab dia tak macam dak lain suka bajet-bajet macam dia je betol. Aku ada je kawan-kawan sebaya tapi mungkin sebab umur sama so banyak yang got problem with each other.

Then masuk Degree, ade jugak kawan dengan sebaya and not. Tapi masuk degree aku tak banyak kawan. Hahaha and orang tu kata "Awak dah matang dalam berfikir tapi ada jugak kekurangannya". And I'm still learning.

Kadang-kadang bila ade problem dengan kawan-kawan try to talked nicely instead of main serbu je. Someone pernah talked to me very nicely. Thanks to you. Even terasa but sangat selesa sebab leh settelkan cara elok without masam muka. Talked nicely end nicely haha.

Dulu pernah kena serbu dengan closed friends depan orang. Nangis jugak la. Bila aku dah selesa dengan orang tu tibe-tibe kene marah, agak nangis and malu gak ar. Puncanya sebab pasal rumah sewa je. And you know what, when she buruk-burukkan me aku tak marah pun. Because why, Aku taknak jadi exactly macam dia. padahal hati panas je kan. Hahaha nangis-nangis cengeng.

Try to control your anger instead of rasa diri tu betul. Fikir dong. Fikir. Janganlah sebab hati kita sakit and pikir orang tu tak jaga hati kita, kita pun nak tunjuk kita hebat. Dah tak leh sangat, talked in private. Jangan malukan orang tu. Kalau boleh simpan, simpan.

When you ade benda tak puas hati with me try this "Nak cakap sikit leh tak, tapi takut terasa". And guess what? It works.

Kadang-kadang ada jugak tersasar sebab orang mencabar-cabar kita. Silent doesnt means we're coward unless memang ko coward pun. Hahaha kadang-kadang malas nak layan je. 1 things kena paham manusia macam-macam attitude. Tak semua suka kita. Ada yang cemburu, ada yang tak suka, ada yang tak puas ati padahal orang tu tak kacau pun. Instead of blaming others cuba cari kat diri sendiri kenapa jadi macam tu. Admit jela, kita sebenarnya yang banyak kekurangan.

I've been there and I exactly talked about myself haha. I'm learning. I tried to forgive and forget. Kadang-kadang nak jadi kejam tapi tak sampai hati. Kadang-kadang memang kejam sangat. Paham. kadang-kadang kita tak leh nak control kan. But cuba la ea. Power mulut kita, power lagi mulut orang sayang.

Prffttt bila nak berubah ni? I really appreciate friend who really appreciate me. I don't need closed friends. I need friends who understand me.

Apehal

That day pergi Alamanda dengan Dia. And I was waiting for him kat luar kereta betul-betulkan tudung, then die kat dalam. Then aku perasanlah yang die duk pandang-pandang aku dengan harapan supaya aku buat muka comel, kenyit-kenyit mata ke ape-ape yang sweet lah. Sekali aku pergi cakap "APEHAL" (siap angkat kepala) lagi. Sumpah spontan. Dia boleh gelak and cakap "awak ni,kalau pompuan lain dah buat-buat manja dah, saya ingat awak nak buat-buat comel ke ape ke??". Sowee I dun realize.

As you know, aku memang kasar. Macam bapak aku kata "dia ni ade 3 orang abang, so memang terikut-ikut perangai abang-abang dia, kasar je". Sampai ati. Huhuhuu. Thanks awak, terima saya seadanya. Saya suka bercinta dengan kawan baik saya sendiri walaupun dulu saya takot. Hehehehe sebab awak dah tau baik buruk saya. Awak boyfriend and kawan baik saya. So xpayah saya nak cover depan awak. Tapi kesian awak dapat GF macam saya, tak reti nak cakap lelembot macam sesetengah orang. Muahahaha. I Love You.

Things I like About You:

1. Awak Rajin tapi saya malas.

2. Awak reti tebas-tebas pokok tapi saya reti tanam bunga and cabut rumput je.

3. Awak tau banyak jenis ikan, sayur and makanan, tapi saya tau ikan kembung dan etc je.

4. Awak penyabar tapi saya tak.

5. Awak pentingkan keluarga dari saya, walaupun saya kecik ati sebab kadang-kadang benda tak jadi, tapi saya paham family is 1st priority and saya pon pentingkan family.

6. Awak lebihkan saya dari kawan, tapi saya lebihkan kawan walaupun dah tau mostly tak jujo kawan dengan saya.

7. Awak pandang saya dari cara lain.

8. You're not a sweet talker guy.

9. Even awak sakit sangat-sangat awak cuba layan and senyum depan saya, tapi saya tak mampu buat sebaliknya.

10. Anything saya mintak, awak jarang bagi. Melainkan awak tak sampai hati (padahal memain je).

11. Awak nampak apa yang ada kat saya dari sudut lain walaupun saya tak sedar.

12. Awak tak pernah buat apa saya tak suka, saya selalu je buat apa awak tak suka. hahaha

Thanks Mohd Nor Aizuddin sebab terima 80% buruk inside me.

fireworks

hari tu date, die sebok and tak habis-habis cakap "kita lepak genting ye, pergi petang pon tape, bende tu malam" . Ok! What is 'bende tu'. Tapela..then lepak rumah Kak Yen online jap. Ntah kenapa bila bende-bende camni aku selalu blur. Prfftt! Padahal orang dah sebot terang-terang ade ke bende tu hujan-hujan ni? Gile aku buat kerja orang jadi senang kot! Then tengah online tu tibe-tibe dengar bunyi meletup kat luar. Terus pergi kat tingkap. And dia ape lagi, suruh keluar la!! And i was like OH MY GOD! OH MY GOD! Bunga api in front of my eyes. So damn close. Pernah je dapat lepak sebelah orang tembak bungi api kat atas bukit saga tu. Tapi tu berapa kali shoot je. Apa lagi tergedik-gedik japla aku kat boyfriend hahaha boleh lak tu cakap "awak,kenapa tak pergi kat sana" then...die xtau cmne nak masuk area hotel tu rupanya. But it's ok! I really-really love it. Dapat pulak masuk freee sempena hari buruh tihihihi.

and sayang this one for you!

bulat's buffday

Last sunday mama suruh aku bawak si bulat jalan-jalan and yes because aku nak pi dating so alang-alang bawak jela. Tapi,orang nak tengok wayang lah mama! Tapela..lagipon bulat nye buffday kan. She's so well behave, tak macam selalu. Diam je,xlasak that day. So bawak la pergi OU, makan sushi and jalan-jalan tengok cats. Ouh die sangat pengeram orangnya. Nanges-nanges taknak keluar dari petshop tu until say BYE BYE. Aku pon tak banyak jaga dia, saja nak dera si Salem hahaha biase anak buah die, die lepas tangan kat aku. Ni hamek kau! Tapi sama je! Aku jugak yang jaga, aku jugak yang tak makan. Dia? Kenyang! Sedeyh wooo! Hahaha taklaaa...you did a very good job!!

kali ni mmg nak super banyak kan gambau.tihihi

tengok fish

over la dia ni

pandaiye keluarkan duit

idk why, when i see this, i fell in love with you

(she geletek you this time-for me!ahah)

Guy

Aku ada sorang kawan. Baik sangat. Dulu ada orang nak kat dia. This one guy I named him Lumut. And my friend O. Lumut kawan dengan dia dengan niat nak ngorat. And yes Lumut dan O bercinta. At first I was like. OMG! OMG! I'm so happy for you. But and the end, bila mamat tu dah bercinta dengan O. He act like takde relationship langsung dengan O. I tried and want to advise O, but when people in loved. what to do? and now after 2 years sumthing, Lumut married someone else.

Sometimes, we know that relationship won't work. Tapi takut nak amik risiko and takut keputusan yang kita buat tu salah. Dah ada bukti depan mata pun, buat-buat tak nampak. Aku dulu pun takut. Dah nampak tapi sangat takut nak breakup. My happiness time with him is about first 7 month. Then tade dah. Bodohnya aku. And no one advise me pun. Bila dah break up, ada je yang marah. But then, closed friends usually memang tak suka aku dengan dia pun. Now i know i made a right decision. Haha and now buat masa ni, I meet the right guy. Buat masa ni la. Tatau la nanti. Kan awak. Dun worry, Allah has better plan for you.

3 benda sama ke tak sama?

1. Pernah tak korang rasa, macam hari korang akan tiba? What I mean is, Korang rasa macam dah nak mati. Hari mati korang makin hampir? If pernah. Seram kan? Takut nak tidur. Susah hati. Everything you do, macam you let go and start to say sorry to everyone. You start to cry and ask WHY? Baru nak flash back sapa kita pernah sakitkan hati, marah, buat cerita buruk. Like you does not have time to say sorry and takut tak sempat and susah nak cari orang yang kita buat dosa tu kat padang Masyar nanti. The day juga, kita xpernah kisah sape yang dah sakitkan hati kita, luka kan kita, gaduh dengan kita. Niat hanya nak forgive orang tu je. But when things back to normal, dah sihat and takde rasa tu dah, will we be the same person like the day yang kita freaking takut tu? Will we forgive people easily? Will people forgive us easily?

2. Semua orang tak sama. Ada serupa tapi berbeza. Sama minat tapi lain pendapat. Yang penting, NIAT. If kita betul-betul ikhlas then ok lah. If not? Manusia ni, penuh dendam dalam hati. Mesti ade yang busuk walaupun setitis air paip. I experienced it too. But we learned. I tried to forgive and forget. But I intended I just can forgive but not forget. You see how my heart works? Busuk kan? Muahahaha

3. Ada orang pernah cakap. Bila kita semakin lupakan DIA, DIA akan menguji kita dengan beri dugaan dan ujian. Bila kita diberi dugaan dan ujian, DIA akan lihat adakah kita akan ingat kat DIA dengan memohon doa untuk sembuh, untuk mencapai kejayaan dan sebagainya. Yes, I've missed a lot. And lumrah manusia, bila ditimpa sesuatu musibah baru nak ingat kat DIA.

tikuih

adoiyaii kesiannya tikus ni :(

super worried

haha dulu before masuk Unisel i assumed as my berat badan dalam 53kg with 161 cm and i'm fine with that. Unisel ni agak best jugak la. i mean not the environment, tapi the food, friends ade la jugak..mostly i loved foods la kat sana. bersepah masakan melayu. macam-macam bende aku nak makan. mula dok hostel tu, takde la naik sangat berat badannya. sebab makan makanan dalam hostel je. food dlm pkp(pusat komuniti pelajar)-fuyoo ingat lagi agak x best la. i dun like! tapi makanan kat taska (4 lecturers children) memang superb sedap. dulu addicted gile makan maggie goreng 4tayar. sedap lah! but service a bit lambat la. sebab terlalu ramai orang.

and then start duk rumah sewa, at that time pon dah dapat kereta. Kancil 660 je pun ha masa tu (wdv 5911) i missed you :( . lagi lah aku super merayau.carik makan lah hape la. ouh btw, memandangkan duk umah sewa, kami masak ye. any kind of food. and everynight pon asyik keluar makan je. ha sekali mula la jiran sebelah tegur aku (aka kawan2 aku 1 coz-lelaki), tau jela mulut lelaki ni, super longkang lah ko zi. haha lagi pula die lagi tua dari aku 3-4 tahun, die buat aku ni macam adik-adik kandung die je kan nak berlongkang-longkang bagai. "apesal ko makin kembang ni?"..prfftt terluka. tau tau jela. berat badan kan sensitif kat pompuan. ade pula yang baik sikit la "bam..asal makin tembam ni..?" dah nama pon bam kan. perli aku ke pe apis ni?

then, mula lah aku terasa seluar jeans aku ketat, peha besar,susah jalan and baju pon lengan dah ketat metat dah ha. sob sob. sedeyh ouh! aku fed up giler. pastu aku ni habit suka beli baju besar-besar sebab aku terasa diri ini super gemuk time tu. bile aku dah jadi betol-betol debab, baju pon aku dah take haty nak beli. selaur jeans pon aku mesti mintak sizw 32 ke atas. malu. takot size asal tak muat. berat pula time tu 56kg tapi rasa macam penimbang salah,maybe 60 perhaps?. wuwuwu.

then jumpe la salem kat unisel time tu, die cabar soh kuruskan badan dalam masa setahun and die bagi rm300. i knopw xleh. i start diet. and kawan-kawan marah sebab cakap my diet xbetol. awak nyer pasal lah ni..

after all,lepas abis belaja, duk umah for about 6-7 months abang mula tegur "dah kurus la, kenapa ea?" and then kawan-kawan tegur, kawan mama tegur and time raya lagi lah semua orang nak tegur "ishh..apesal kurus sangat ni" and ade la kawan aku si farid datang raya kat umah "weyh,,sumpah doh...apesal dengan ko ni..sumpah kurus giler". aku bukan nak happy ke apa. i'm truly upset. i nak kurus, tapi xnaklah lah super kurus. waaaaaa takot... mula lah aku pikir macam-macam penyakit.

but one thing, after dah kurus. i can wear anything. my own size! dapat confident ni pon from salem. and he's the one soh naikkan berat badan sikit. haha die and most of people cakap "tak cantik kurus sangat,macam papan". haha that time berat gile turun jadi 50kg. and now i'm happy with my berat badan kejap 53kg kejap 55kg. tapi for sure now, kalau berat naik mendadak,automatically selera makan turun. i guess die nak maintainkan berat badan kot.

dolu-dolu

kurus wuwuwu:

current:

i want to be

when i'm small. i'm very the pemalu girl. don't talk much. even when boys/girls talked to me and just say "hye", i would look at the floor. when i'm doing my Diploma, i talked a lot-only to the person i know/closed. but what i realised, me and people around are not even good. i mean good -GOOD. people keep hurting each other. hate each other. get annoyed with each other attituted, man..it's called HUMAN if it's not.

world is not cruel. but people are. i'm tired of keep silent everytime people bullied me. i'm tired to be left alone. i'm tired of crying. i'm tired i tried so hard, but still...people didn't see. i've change. what happen to me yesterday, teach me to be tough for tommorow. yet, i do regret for my attitude today-it hurts when you become for the one who you are not. maybe i've hurt you before, and i'm sorry.

until now, i don't know who are you in front of me. and who are you behind me. it's just much better if i become much worst than you can expected. when i do appreciate, i really do. but when i'm stop crying, that means if so over you.

10q for all the good and bad times you've been with me.

tq mama & bapak

dear mama&bapak,

today, 1st time rasmi lappy baru even though dah beli last week. act macam xsuke je dapat lappy baru. hahaha thanks mama bapak, mintak second hand and main-main , dapatnya betol-betol. but still i sayang the old lappy. wuwuwuwuwu xnak jual mahupun buang. sian lappy lama, leher patah, speaker pecah, tempat cd and internet xleh detect. fine tape, leh terima lagi. ni langsung xleh on. so pinjam lappy mama dulu, bia die pakai lappy baru sebab nak berkebun katenya lagipun nak install bende-bende skit kat opis die. anyway much thanks both of my parents. ani try tak kasar-kasar.eventhough you buy me the cheapest one pon still amek. muahx

love,

YOUR ONE &ONLY GIRL KAT RUMAH

long distance relationship

why la why? aku rasa orang yang tak ready or tak biasa or whatsoever susah nak handle long distance relationship. i do act cool, tapi tak bermakna tak rindu, tak ingat, tak kisah. tapi kalau terbawa-bawa and everyday nak macam tu, macam mana? it's just gonna be bad relationship. sekali-sekala boleh la. b4 berpisah (jarak jauh) thats why nak spent time sama-sama, eventhough terkilan xdapat lepak sama and u just went away, tapi tak nak terbawak-bawak. it's just so not OK. i hope u can handle this. 3 bulan je pun kan. dulu pun ingat xleh and rasa susah, tapi i'm ok. i'll help you ok! xoxo!

p/s: dulu 2tahun xjumpe boleh je~ hehehe

sedang berBOSAN

mut mut! adelah sejenis tumbuhan yang boleh mengubati penyakit lelah. bahaha semalam tersangatlah bosan. so, ajak la si Hani and Tika p berbasikal, dah siap-siap dah ni, tapi xsempat kul 6.30 jugak sampai. bende totp kul 7. tapi sekian terima kasih jela. berlagak ni nak satu jam jugak! memandangkan niat nak berbasikal dah terbatal disitu, maka aku pon bawak la dorg p pullman, tengok keindahan tasik buatan. ha batak jap korang dok situ. hahahaha padahal hani dah lali tengok bende-bende tasik laut bagai.

ouh, b4 ni kiterunk lepak SUNWAY lu, i nak gune voucher rm50 i la. oops Salem punye. saje je nak nyatakan rm50 tu. sebab rm50 la aku sanggup pergi. voucher tu sampai khamis ni je. so better use than never. tapi... wuwuwu si Salem tak bagi aku pakai beg tu lagi, sampai die balik. kejam-kejam! dah la cakap beg orang buruk layak buang je. kasar ni der..! bagi la orang rasmi beg baru cepat-cepat. waaaaa! tapi xpe pun. die balik Jumaat ni je pun. kecoh lah!

aku ni kepingin lah sangat-sangat nak makan KFC, ajak si salem tu, dusta je. janji pelesuuu.. so i carik sendiri! hahahaha then shopping bagai pastu p beli kek ntok buffday zarif, air, cawan plastik semua last-last decide p kedai makan je celebrate.

plan buffday:

col si zack tu cakap ade meeting.

perbualan seperti di bawah:

zack: helloooooo~ (gaya dia lew)

wani: hello weyh! ko kat ne? mlm ni ade meeting taw

zack: aku kat bilik, ooo MEETING YAAAA!

ouh0ouh adekah hint disitu menyatakn bahawasanya die dah tau plan kami. cis! tapi tika xpuas haty gak tu, nak buat jugak. so we all decide nak amek die kat hostel. boleh tahan kelakau gak ar, lighter rosak -pinjam kat makcik cafe, then si pemerhati Tika, x reti nak memerhati dengan betol ye disitu, asyik salah orang je. dah 4-5 kali gak nyala lilin pastu padam balik. then zarif dah turun aku tnyer lew. laptop mana weyh? sebab aku dah nampak die bawak camera pandai ko ea! tersengih-sengih macam kerang busuk gitu.bahahahha terkejut ko sebab die ingat lambat lagi.

so next will update picture buffday zack. sebab gambar and camera kat owner and tuan nyer buffday ye.!

we had a fight

over cheezy wedges or toasted pocketful

but she got the chezzy wedges

but, its ok. i bought new dishes.

saya datang balik awk!

i want this

want to grab this tumolo

kahwin!

ho ho ho! penat giler dis very whole week. but still, aku have fun sangat! macam-macam benda aku makan. durian 3 hari jugak la aku makan. baik haty family die bawak aku pergi jalan-jalan and bagi aku rasa macam-macam. takut jugak aku kalau family die tak suka. hahaha sihat aku duk sana. macam-macam bende masuk dalam mulut. kerdas, pulasan, baung (betol ke tidak aku eja) macam-macam lah. die lak x makan ikan takde sisik. sebab tak mo kecik kan aty aku gagahkan jugak masuk ikan tu dalam mulut. sedapppp! rugi awak xmakan. hahaha dapat jugak la aku tengok pokok durian, manggis ape lagi ntah name buah tu. at least cuba rasa.

and on hari kahwin. leh plak kakak die soh aku jadi pengapit. tak gabra lak aku. macam-macam alasan aku bagi. lebih rela aku bagi bunga telur dari jadi pengapit. tapi nampaknye tak leh gak lari. alang nye, mak nye haihhh. dipaksanya aku make up plak. haih! setelah nak dekat 2 tahun xpakai makeup (akibat muka tumbuh jerawat), tu lah first time pakai balik. tapi dengan syarat "kalau awak jadi pengapit baru saya jadi jugak", hahahha and die pujuk la kakak die. so kiterunk jadi pengapit, main-main mata. bak kata alang die (orang lain yang kawen, kome pula yang main mata ye). hahahaha seronok sangat. banyak sangat benda aku belaja and on the same time, i missed my family.

tapi one thing yang aku terkilan, banyak benda plan tak jadi. sangat-sangat terkilan. tapi takpela.

i end up, exhausted gile

oh kanan sekali ni kak ila. tq k.ila and k.yam bagi tumpang bilik.

jap ye sayang, acik nak 'tap' jap