tikuih

adoiyaii kesiannya tikus ni :(

super worried

haha dulu before masuk Unisel i assumed as my berat badan dalam 53kg with 161 cm and i'm fine with that. Unisel ni agak best jugak la. i mean not the environment, tapi the food, friends ade la jugak..mostly i loved foods la kat sana. bersepah masakan melayu. macam-macam bende aku nak makan. mula dok hostel tu, takde la naik sangat berat badannya. sebab makan makanan dalam hostel je. food dlm pkp(pusat komuniti pelajar)-fuyoo ingat lagi agak x best la. i dun like! tapi makanan kat taska (4 lecturers children) memang superb sedap. dulu addicted gile makan maggie goreng 4tayar. sedap lah! but service a bit lambat la. sebab terlalu ramai orang.

and then start duk rumah sewa, at that time pon dah dapat kereta. Kancil 660 je pun ha masa tu (wdv 5911) i missed you :( . lagi lah aku super merayau.carik makan lah hape la. ouh btw, memandangkan duk umah sewa, kami masak ye. any kind of food. and everynight pon asyik keluar makan je. ha sekali mula la jiran sebelah tegur aku (aka kawan2 aku 1 coz-lelaki), tau jela mulut lelaki ni, super longkang lah ko zi. haha lagi pula die lagi tua dari aku 3-4 tahun, die buat aku ni macam adik-adik kandung die je kan nak berlongkang-longkang bagai. "apesal ko makin kembang ni?"..prfftt terluka. tau tau jela. berat badan kan sensitif kat pompuan. ade pula yang baik sikit la "bam..asal makin tembam ni..?" dah nama pon bam kan. perli aku ke pe apis ni?

then, mula lah aku terasa seluar jeans aku ketat, peha besar,susah jalan and baju pon lengan dah ketat metat dah ha. sob sob. sedeyh ouh! aku fed up giler. pastu aku ni habit suka beli baju besar-besar sebab aku terasa diri ini super gemuk time tu. bile aku dah jadi betol-betol debab, baju pon aku dah take haty nak beli. selaur jeans pon aku mesti mintak sizw 32 ke atas. malu. takot size asal tak muat. berat pula time tu 56kg tapi rasa macam penimbang salah,maybe 60 perhaps?. wuwuwu.

then jumpe la salem kat unisel time tu, die cabar soh kuruskan badan dalam masa setahun and die bagi rm300. i knopw xleh. i start diet. and kawan-kawan marah sebab cakap my diet xbetol. awak nyer pasal lah ni..

after all,lepas abis belaja, duk umah for about 6-7 months abang mula tegur "dah kurus la, kenapa ea?" and then kawan-kawan tegur, kawan mama tegur and time raya lagi lah semua orang nak tegur "ishh..apesal kurus sangat ni" and ade la kawan aku si farid datang raya kat umah "weyh,,sumpah doh...apesal dengan ko ni..sumpah kurus giler". aku bukan nak happy ke apa. i'm truly upset. i nak kurus, tapi xnaklah lah super kurus. waaaaaa takot... mula lah aku pikir macam-macam penyakit.

but one thing, after dah kurus. i can wear anything. my own size! dapat confident ni pon from salem. and he's the one soh naikkan berat badan sikit. haha die and most of people cakap "tak cantik kurus sangat,macam papan". haha that time berat gile turun jadi 50kg. and now i'm happy with my berat badan kejap 53kg kejap 55kg. tapi for sure now, kalau berat naik mendadak,automatically selera makan turun. i guess die nak maintainkan berat badan kot.

dolu-dolu

kurus wuwuwu:

current:

i want to be

when i'm small. i'm very the pemalu girl. don't talk much. even when boys/girls talked to me and just say "hye", i would look at the floor. when i'm doing my Diploma, i talked a lot-only to the person i know/closed. but what i realised, me and people around are not even good. i mean good -GOOD. people keep hurting each other. hate each other. get annoyed with each other attituted, man..it's called HUMAN if it's not.

world is not cruel. but people are. i'm tired of keep silent everytime people bullied me. i'm tired to be left alone. i'm tired of crying. i'm tired i tried so hard, but still...people didn't see. i've change. what happen to me yesterday, teach me to be tough for tommorow. yet, i do regret for my attitude today-it hurts when you become for the one who you are not. maybe i've hurt you before, and i'm sorry.

until now, i don't know who are you in front of me. and who are you behind me. it's just much better if i become much worst than you can expected. when i do appreciate, i really do. but when i'm stop crying, that means if so over you.

10q for all the good and bad times you've been with me.

tq mama & bapak

dear mama&bapak,

today, 1st time rasmi lappy baru even though dah beli last week. act macam xsuke je dapat lappy baru. hahaha thanks mama bapak, mintak second hand and main-main , dapatnya betol-betol. but still i sayang the old lappy. wuwuwuwuwu xnak jual mahupun buang. sian lappy lama, leher patah, speaker pecah, tempat cd and internet xleh detect. fine tape, leh terima lagi. ni langsung xleh on. so pinjam lappy mama dulu, bia die pakai lappy baru sebab nak berkebun katenya lagipun nak install bende-bende skit kat opis die. anyway much thanks both of my parents. ani try tak kasar-kasar.eventhough you buy me the cheapest one pon still amek. muahx

love,

YOUR ONE &ONLY GIRL KAT RUMAH

long distance relationship

why la why? aku rasa orang yang tak ready or tak biasa or whatsoever susah nak handle long distance relationship. i do act cool, tapi tak bermakna tak rindu, tak ingat, tak kisah. tapi kalau terbawa-bawa and everyday nak macam tu, macam mana? it's just gonna be bad relationship. sekali-sekala boleh la. b4 berpisah (jarak jauh) thats why nak spent time sama-sama, eventhough terkilan xdapat lepak sama and u just went away, tapi tak nak terbawak-bawak. it's just so not OK. i hope u can handle this. 3 bulan je pun kan. dulu pun ingat xleh and rasa susah, tapi i'm ok. i'll help you ok! xoxo!

p/s: dulu 2tahun xjumpe boleh je~ hehehe

sedang berBOSAN

mut mut! adelah sejenis tumbuhan yang boleh mengubati penyakit lelah. bahaha semalam tersangatlah bosan. so, ajak la si Hani and Tika p berbasikal, dah siap-siap dah ni, tapi xsempat kul 6.30 jugak sampai. bende totp kul 7. tapi sekian terima kasih jela. berlagak ni nak satu jam jugak! memandangkan niat nak berbasikal dah terbatal disitu, maka aku pon bawak la dorg p pullman, tengok keindahan tasik buatan. ha batak jap korang dok situ. hahahaha padahal hani dah lali tengok bende-bende tasik laut bagai.

ouh, b4 ni kiterunk lepak SUNWAY lu, i nak gune voucher rm50 i la. oops Salem punye. saje je nak nyatakan rm50 tu. sebab rm50 la aku sanggup pergi. voucher tu sampai khamis ni je. so better use than never. tapi... wuwuwu si Salem tak bagi aku pakai beg tu lagi, sampai die balik. kejam-kejam! dah la cakap beg orang buruk layak buang je. kasar ni der..! bagi la orang rasmi beg baru cepat-cepat. waaaaa! tapi xpe pun. die balik Jumaat ni je pun. kecoh lah!

aku ni kepingin lah sangat-sangat nak makan KFC, ajak si salem tu, dusta je. janji pelesuuu.. so i carik sendiri! hahahaha then shopping bagai pastu p beli kek ntok buffday zarif, air, cawan plastik semua last-last decide p kedai makan je celebrate.

plan buffday:

col si zack tu cakap ade meeting.

perbualan seperti di bawah:

zack: helloooooo~ (gaya dia lew)

wani: hello weyh! ko kat ne? mlm ni ade meeting taw

zack: aku kat bilik, ooo MEETING YAAAA!

ouh0ouh adekah hint disitu menyatakn bahawasanya die dah tau plan kami. cis! tapi tika xpuas haty gak tu, nak buat jugak. so we all decide nak amek die kat hostel. boleh tahan kelakau gak ar, lighter rosak -pinjam kat makcik cafe, then si pemerhati Tika, x reti nak memerhati dengan betol ye disitu, asyik salah orang je. dah 4-5 kali gak nyala lilin pastu padam balik. then zarif dah turun aku tnyer lew. laptop mana weyh? sebab aku dah nampak die bawak camera pandai ko ea! tersengih-sengih macam kerang busuk gitu.bahahahha terkejut ko sebab die ingat lambat lagi.

so next will update picture buffday zack. sebab gambar and camera kat owner and tuan nyer buffday ye.!

we had a fight

over cheezy wedges or toasted pocketful

but she got the chezzy wedges

but, its ok. i bought new dishes.

saya datang balik awk!

i want this

want to grab this tumolo

kahwin!

ho ho ho! penat giler dis very whole week. but still, aku have fun sangat! macam-macam benda aku makan. durian 3 hari jugak la aku makan. baik haty family die bawak aku pergi jalan-jalan and bagi aku rasa macam-macam. takut jugak aku kalau family die tak suka. hahaha sihat aku duk sana. macam-macam bende masuk dalam mulut. kerdas, pulasan, baung (betol ke tidak aku eja) macam-macam lah. die lak x makan ikan takde sisik. sebab tak mo kecik kan aty aku gagahkan jugak masuk ikan tu dalam mulut. sedapppp! rugi awak xmakan. hahaha dapat jugak la aku tengok pokok durian, manggis ape lagi ntah name buah tu. at least cuba rasa.

and on hari kahwin. leh plak kakak die soh aku jadi pengapit. tak gabra lak aku. macam-macam alasan aku bagi. lebih rela aku bagi bunga telur dari jadi pengapit. tapi nampaknye tak leh gak lari. alang nye, mak nye haihhh. dipaksanya aku make up plak. haih! setelah nak dekat 2 tahun xpakai makeup (akibat muka tumbuh jerawat), tu lah first time pakai balik. tapi dengan syarat "kalau awak jadi pengapit baru saya jadi jugak", hahahha and die pujuk la kakak die. so kiterunk jadi pengapit, main-main mata. bak kata alang die (orang lain yang kawen, kome pula yang main mata ye). hahahaha seronok sangat. banyak sangat benda aku belaja and on the same time, i missed my family.

tapi one thing yang aku terkilan, banyak benda plan tak jadi. sangat-sangat terkilan. tapi takpela.

i end up, exhausted gile

oh kanan sekali ni kak ila. tq k.ila and k.yam bagi tumpang bilik.

jap ye sayang, acik nak 'tap' jap